0 2012 - The Year that Was

2012. What a year you have been. Many believed that you will bring about the end of the world. For a time, I believed that my world actually ended. Not literally, but emotionally. 2012 brought the end of the only love that I fought so hard to keep. I did many stupid things that I wont be proud of ever. In the end all effort was in vain. Well, not entirely. The ordeal made me stronger. It made me appreciate and value myself more. That if ever I love again, I should save some for myself so that if ever things would not work out, I would still have something left to move forward with. That the transition wouldnt be as difficult. What I went through this year was the lowest that my heart had ever felt. It started out great but towards the third quarter, all hell broke loose. Still, no choice but to move forward. The very fact that I'm still here and surviving and making the most of my life proves that no matter what comes my way, I can conquer them and I will come out victorious. of course, I wont be able to accomplish it without God's grace.

2012. The year that strengthened my relationship with my Heavenly Father. I'm proud to say that I had established my personal relationship with Him. Though I am not perfect, He loves me just as I am. No conditions. Though I am not worthy, He sent His only son to redeem me from my sins. He doesn't need perfection because nobody is perfect. Accepting Him as our Lord and savior and surrendering our life to Him is all that He needs. Without my victory family and friends, I would still be a drifter. Who knows what could've happened. I'm really thankful that I had been with the best crowd during those tough times.

2012. My career had been great. I got promoted, conquered things I didn't know I can and somehow contented with my current project ( more like I had no choice but to accept it though. Lol :) ) Anyway, It's just a matter of perspective. 2012 closed with a possibility of many new opportunities waiting to be taken. I know whatever path I chose, I just have to put my heart in it and everything will come out for the better.

2012. The year that I get to value my friends more. The year that I begin to share my life to girlfriends. This is a first since I was always the type who keeps everything to herself. It was always me and the boyfriend. This year, I had been more outgoing. If I had known that sharing your life to others would feel this good, I would've done this before. Oh well, its not yet too late. 23 is still young. :) 2012 had been friendship awareness year :))

2012. I had strengthened my relationship with my family and made me value them more. I got to bond with my sister more and somehow was able to establish a normal relationship. After so many years! Lol! During our growing up years, we always have this cat-mouse relationship so this year was definitely an achievement.

2012. On a personal note, everything that happened made me who I am now. I became more mature. It made me realize that I'm not a child anymore. Time to face reality and claim this stage of my life with flying colors. 10, 20, 30 years from now, when I look back at this stage, I would want to look back, smile and say to myself that no matter what happened, good or bad, I had faced every challenges head-on. No shortcuts. No easy way out and that I had conquered it the best possible, Godly and morally acceptable way. Though I will eternally have my childish ways ( yes it will always be a part of me. That, I'm sure. It is who I am. ) I know I will handle everything gracefully.

All in all, 2012 was the best and the worst year for me. First quarter started out great. Second quarter was a bit rocky but was still good. Third quarter, all hell broke loose. Last quarter was shitty but somehow it became bearable. Thank you for the lessons, memories and crazy stuffs. Everything molded me and made me who I am today.

Looking forward to an awesome 2013..

Happy New Year!!

0 HERE IN MY LIFE

I have never walked on waterFelt the waves beneath my feet butAt Your word, Lord, I’ll receive YourFaith to walk on oceans deep
And I remember how You found meIn that very same placeAll my failings surely would've drowned meStill You made a way
You are my freedomJesus, You’re the reasonI’m kneeling again at Your throneWhere would I be without YouHere in my life, here in my life?
You have said that all the heavensSing for joy at one who findsThe way to freedom, truth of JesusBrought from death into His life
And I remember how You saw meThrough the eyes of Your graceAnd though the cost was Your beloved for meStill you made a way
You are my freedomJesus, You’re the reasonI’m kneeling again at Your throneWhere would I be without YouHere in my life, here in my life?
You are my freedomJesus, You’re the reasonI’m kneeling again at Your throneWhere would I be without YouHere in my life, here in my life?
You are my freedomJesus, You’re the reasonYou are my freedomJesus, You’re the reason
You are my freedomJesus, You’re the reasonYou are my freedomJesus, You’re the reason
You are my freedomJesus, You’re the reasonI’m kneeling again at Your throneWhere would I be without YouHere in my life, here in my life?
You are my freedomJesus, You’re the reasonI'm kneeling again at Your throneWhere would I be without YouHere in my life, here in my life?

Every time I hear this song, I can't help but cry. This song explains God's love clear and simple. That no matter how imperfect, how sinful, how unworthy we are, God wanted US. Yes, you and me. He loves us so much that He can't stand us being separated from Him because of our sins. He made a way to save us from our sinful nature. He even sent His Son, Jesus, to take away all our sins. He sacrificed His own son for you and me. (John 3:16 For God so loved the world that He gave His only Son that whoever believes in His shall not perish but have eternal life)Who else could love like that? No human being could exceed His perfect and unconditional love. Where would we be without His love? 

For every soul that seek and find Him, all the angels on heaven rejoice. If you experience God's love in your life, you will never want to leave His sight ever again. You see, nobody said following God was easy. Its easier to conform to the patterns of our sinful world than to follow Him but one thing is sure, its all worth it in the end. :)

0 University of Santo Tomas

UST

UST, a photo by yza_06_08 on Flickr.

Shot taken during my first ever photowalk. At University of Santo Tomas. This will be the first post for my current project, The Once-A-Week photo Project.

0 Change

You cant insist on someone that you have changed. Words mean nothing. People may doubt your words but they might believe you if they see it in your actions and in the way you live. 

0 Looking at the Silver Lining

Last Saturday I woke up feeling numb and empty. So I did the only thing i can do. I prayed. The prayer goes something like this:

Thank you for giving me another day to live Lord God. As I reflect upon my life today, I shudder at the thought that you haven't left me even though I have fallen under your grace many times. Of all the mistakes that I have done, many things could have happened. It could have been worse. But here I am today slowly but surely getting up. You are truly a great Father. Let me lead a life pleasing to Your eves starting today. No more double standards. Lead my life to serve you and do what you want me to do. Teach me to put You first above all things. I know I can't do this on my own. It is only by your grace that I will be able to get over this. I love you! Amen.

I posted this as my status in my Facebook because I don't want to forget it and for me to have something to read through whenever I feel down again. :) Walking with the Lord is not easy but if you hold on to Him tightly, everything is all worth it! :)

2 Letter to Myself

The rock, Puerto Galera, Philippines

Dearest Yza,

   Whatever happens, whatever you have done, even if the whole world is against you, ( Well, if ever you have that feeling because it is impossible to know everyone in your country, let alone the whole world ) Remember that there is someone who love you. You have me. I love you. I will never abandon you. You will never be alone. Besides, you also have a great Father who loves you dearly.

     Its normal to fall once in a while. You are not perfect. But always remember the lessons learned along the way so that you won't repeat your mistake. Committing the same mistake over and over again is insanity.Last time I checked, you are in a healthy state of mind (or so I believe? lol)

     Guard your heart. Don't let anyone hurt you. You are a daughter of God. You are His princess. You are to be treated with royalty. Accept nothing less.

     Be confident! Why will you self-pity? Never compare yourself with anyone. To each his/her own. You have the power to conquer the world.

     Continue your progress. You are doing great. Not perfect but okay enough.

     You are beautiful! Thinking otherwise is an insult to your Creator. Everything He creates is beautiful.

     Smile. It brings good vibes. :)

     Healing takes time but I know at the end, you will come out a better person.

     Be independent. Don't push yourself to someone who does not know your worth. You are precious. Don't think little of yourself. You don't need anyone's opinion. Just do what your heart tells you. Yes, you might be hurt in the process, but at least you have nothing to regret.

     Live fully, love with all your heart, do what you want! Nobody is stopping you. Be like a child, basking in innocence, trusting and always thinking positive.

     If others hurt you, forgive and forget. Don't let others bring you down. Trust fully. If they broke your trust and ask for forgiveness, give it to them. Don't hold grudges. Bitterness is a root that strangles the heart. Don't let it strangle yours. Let it all go. Don't let it define your future. You are loved. You have me.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.                                                                                                  1 Corinthians 13:4-7            

And now these thriee remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.                                                                                                 1 Corinthians 13:13

     Strenghten your relationship with Him.

But seek first His kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.                                                                                                            Matthew 6:33

     Never loose hope in the future. Trust in Him. Don't forget you have your father who loves you. Lift your problems to Him. Baliktad ka eh. If times are okay, you seek the Lord, but when trouble comes, you shy away from Him. When the road is bumpy, that's the time that you should hold on to Him stronger. You can't do anything on your own. :) Why sulk when you can be happy? Life is short! Enjoy your life while you can.

     I LOVE YOU YZA! You are a strong woman. I know you can do anything. I believe in you :)


Love,
Your Inner Self

                                      

0 I GOT MY PASSPORT!

If you guys have been following my blog, you will remember my post about how to get passport in the Philippines, I chose the option for it to be delivered my home address The released date was Sept 17 and true to their word, I got it yesterday, Sept 17, 2012. :) Congratulations DFA *clap clap* I'm impressed :) I can now proceed with my intenational travel plans! \(*^*)/

My passport delivered to my doorstep c/o 2GO.

Passport delivered with the receipt

My passport. chubby face wtf >.<

2 30 before 30

Early this year, I chanced upon this travel blog from the sole sisters and ever since then, I was inspired to travel more and see the world. They also inspired me to make a 30 before 30 list. This list,similar to a bucket list, contains 30 things that you want to achieve or places you want to go to before reaching 30 years old. (I'm currently 23 so I still have 7 years to complete! ) Most of the items on the list are related to traveling as this is my current passion today. Some items are things I want to achieve or skills I want to learn before hitting 30. Hopefully I will be able to finish this list before leaving the line of 20s :)

1. set foot at white beach puerto galera
2. Climb on top of a mountain
3. See the Aurora Borealis
4. See masterpieces personally at louve museum
5. See paris on top of the eifel tower
6. Walk on the great wall of china
7. Cuddle a baby panda.
8. See and take a picture with the statue of Hachiko at shibuya
9. See coron, el nido, puerto princesa palawan
10. Find a job at the beach and stay there for two months
11. Go to hong kong disney land
12. Go on an impromptu road trip w/o a destination
13. Go on a vigan, pagudpod, laoag tour (05-20-2013)

14. Go on a cebu-bohol tour
15. learn and be good at martial arts - taekwondo, karate
16. Be fluent in japanese language
17. win a photography contest / get a photo published in a travel magazine
18. Have a kiddie birthday party again
19. Learn how to drive and own my first car
20. go on a month-long vacation
21. Travel solo locally and abroad
22. Go on a carribean cruise
23. see baby turtles/pawikans hatch from egg and crawl to the ocean.
24. Go to at least 5 fiestas in the philippines
25. Visit tokyo tower and see sakura blossoms at its finest
26. Tour around osaka and kyoto to see the conservative side of japan
27. See the pyramids at Giza
28. quit my dayjob and start my own business
29. celebrate a white christmas
30. go on a eurotrip/ see at least 5 cities in europe.

0 HUMAN HEART NATURE | 100% Natural Purifying Facial Scrub

100% Natural Purifying Facial Scrub

PRODUCT DESCRIPTION:

Exfoliate your skin the natural way with our 100% Natural Purifying Facial Scrub! Made with real strawberry seeds and fine bamboo granules to soften your skin while gently removing dirt and toxins, you can now show off your healthy, smooth and luminous complexion without compromising your skin!

First time I used this product, I fell in love with it instantly! I love the strawberry smell, not too strong not too light. :) Packaging is cute too. Simple yet eye-catching enough. No harmful chemicals: no parabens, pthalates, SLS/SLES or other toxic substances. (Only the Good :)) The one I got in February has fewer grains (strawberry seeds) and the fine bamboo granules are too fine to be seen but on my third order, this batch contained more strawberry seeds and the bamboo granules are much more noticeable.

  INGREDIENTS:

 water, stearic acid (vegetable derived), decylglucoside (coconut derived), glyceryl stearate (vegetable derived), sodium lactate (sugarcane derived), sodium gluconate (sugarcane derived), Bambusa arundinaceae (bamboo) stem extract, Fragaria vesca(strawberry) seed, levulinic acid (rice/corn derived), coco glucoside (coconut derived), glyceryloleate (coconut derived), xanthan gum, fragrance (all natural), phytic acid (rice derived), anisic acid (anise acid derived), iron oxide (CI 77491, CI 77492, CI 77499)

I must say that this product is really effective. Im on my third tube now. So far it prevented my breakouts cleared my skin. I’m definitely going to stick with this facial Scrub. 5 stars out of 5 for this product. J

Did you know: Salicylic acid, one of the most common ingredients found in many chemical facial scrubs, is designed to fight acne and is also used as an exfoliant. According to cosmeticsdatabase.com, salicylic acid may have harmful effects on your brain, nervous and reproductive system and can act as a skin irritant andpenetration enhancer allowing other harmful chemicals to penetrate deeper into the skin. Because of this, its use is restricted in Canadian and Japanese cosmetics. So why use it in yours? 

0 Unfair Korean Beauty!

I've been searching Youtube for everyday make up tutorials and chanced upon this video. When I saw this I was like, OMG she is sooo pretty!! What is it with korean genes? Why? why? why haven't I been born as pretty as her? Life is really unfair >.< By the way, this is her blog here. I learned that she is pregnant and is going to give birth soon. Why be pregnant and be so beautiful at the same time? wahhhh :( okay, rant over. anyways, I hope she delivers her baby safe. I hope that she and the baby make it :) Oh by the way, if she ever read this post, you are officially one of my girl crushes. ;)

PS: Thank you for your wonderful tutorial. I learned a lot :D simple and elegant make-up tutorial :D Keep up the good work!

0 Etude House Shopping

This afternoon, I went to the mall and decided to drop by Etude House's store. Never did I know that I will not be coming out empty handed. There are many cute stuffs sold at the store! :) So after checking out the items on display, (took me a good 30 minutes to get out) I got the following items. Notice how the items I bought are either pink or light green. I only noticed it after I got home :p

Items I bought at Etude House

1. AC Clinic Intense Trial Kit - 428.00PHP

The kit contains the following items:

                        a. AC Clinic Daily Acne Foam Cleanser (30ml)
                        b. AC Clinic Daily Toner (25ml)
                        c. AC Clinic Daily Gel Lotion (25ml)
                        d. AC Clinic Intense Pink Powder Spot(5ml) + 10 Cotton Swabs
                        e. AC Clinic Intense Pink Powder Water (5ml)

   I bought this because I've recently been having breakout and pimple spots all over my face. When I asked the saleslady what can she recommend to me regarding my problem and she recommended me this.

AC Clinic Intense Trial Kit

2. Drawing Show Creamy Eyeliner (BK803) - 498.00 PHP

Drawing Show Creamy Eyeliner (BK803)

3. Bling Bling Eye Stick #3 Pink Supernova - 198.00 PHP

 4. 2 I Need You, Pearl Extract Mask Sheet - 58.00 PHP (Each)

I Need You, Pearl Extract Mask Sheet

5. 2 I Need You, Aloe Mask Sheet - 58.00 PHP (Each)

I Need You, Aloe Mask Sheet

4 Masks

 Total Purchases amounted to 1,356.00 PHP (About 30- 35$) This entitles me to a freebie! The 1000 PHP freebie was supposed to be a pencil set (what a bummer. I would've preferred the 500 PHP freebie which is a pomegranate mask) but I had a Belle De Jour Planner voucher that entitles me to a gift upgrade to the next level. I got the freebie for item purchases worth 2000 PHP which is the milk talk kit! :)

Milk Talk Kit

Milk Talk Kit containing 3 pcs bodywash. Banana, Strawberry and chocolate

 I will try to post a review on the products as soon as possible to see if they are effective. This is all for now. :)


-=KASUCHAN=-

0 How to get a Passport in the Philippines

This post is a week late. Sorry for that.. :) Remember my post about my very strong urge to go to ye old Nippon(Japan)? (if you haven't read it, here is a link for you) Well, I took the first step to achieve it! (clap! clap! Pat on the back.) 

Last August 24, I went to the Department of Foreign Affairs (DFA) to apply for a passport. The whole process took about 2 hours at most because there are many people also applying for their passports. (Random thought: Do my fellowmen really want to leave our country that much?) Take note though that before the said date, I went to the DFA website to get an appointment. You cant walk-in on DFA without an appointment. Here is a step by step guide on how I got my passport.

BEFORE APPOINTMENT DATE

1. Set up an appointment

DFA will not accept applicant without a valid appointment. You need to set your appointment via their website here. The site contains a step-by-step process that is easy to follow. 

2. Gather your Requirements

Aside from your form, you also need to submit some requirements needed to process your passport. Personally, I prepared the ff.

         a. Original NSO birth certificate.

         b. Company ID (original and photocopy)

         c. Voter's ID (original and photocopy)

for more information about passport requirements, please refer to this site.

3. Print your form

After setting an appointment with DFA, click the confirmation link they will send you on the email that you have provided. Print the PDF form that will appear after clicking the link. Do note that the form's format is for a letter size bond paper (8.5"x13"). On the first page, it will contain your appointment date and time plus reminders from DFA. You need to show this form to be able to enter DFA premises.

ON APPOINTMENT DATE

DONT BE LATE!

Personally, I have this tendency to always be late. Being late is a big no no if you don't want your schedule to be moved to another date. Especially if you have your job and filed for a vacation leave. I almost missed my schedule so be there on time! give at least 30 minutes allowance aside from your usual travel time to DFA. Also, you will be advised to be 30 minutes early from your scheduled appointment time so stick to that time allowance. For new applications, you need to go to the new DFA which is just a couple of minutes away from SM Mall of Asia.

upon arrival, you will need to give your printed form to the station near the gate. He will sign on the form and scan the bar code of your application form.

Step 1: Processing and Document Evaluation 

On this step, the staff will validate your requirements if they complete and valid. Once validated, the will give you a passport slip like the image below. It will contain the amount that you need to pay when you go to step 2. Here, you may chose between regular processing( 950PHP), which will take 15 working days, or rush processing(1200PHP) which will take about 7 working days. Since I dont have any immediate travel plans, I chose the regular processing. You may now proceed to step 2. Step 2 is located on the second floor.

Step 2: Payment

Together with your receipt, proceed to the cashier and pay the amount indicated in your passport slip. 

Step 3: Encoding

This process took up most of my time. Took more than an hour because of the number of people also applying. After paying, get your queue number like the one on the picture below.

A screen will be flashing the current number being served as well as the booth number you will go to. Once your number is flashed, proceed to the booth and have your picture, signature specimen and finger prints taken. The actual process of encoding took about 5 - 10 minutes at most.

Step 4: Additional step

 for those who want their passports delivered at home or at the office, you need to pay 120 for the shipping fee then chose the courier you want. I chose 2GO because the encoder there work fast compared with the others (particularly LBC, where I lined up first). 

This is the last process that you need to do. You just have to wait for your passport to arrive. Good luck!

0 Mail time

Two packages arrived in the mail for me today! :) (actually there is also a letter that arrived today but its just the credit card bill so I wouldn't post about that one.) Look what I got! 

Packages for me! I just love opening them :)

The white one was a gift pack from Unilab Nutritionals containing 2 180 gram pack of Athena Milk. I used the coupon found on my Belle De Jour 2012 planner to claim the item. Scanned the coupon and emailed to to their email address, athenamilk.unilab@gmail.com. The exchange went well and I got a quick reply from their staff unlike the Carbtrim coupon which up till now, I havent received any reply. (bummer) Because of this, I will love BDJ planners for the rest of my life. lol. I just love freebies.

Housewaybill 

I was supposed to get the items yesterday. Someone called me up and asked for the directions for my house and they said that they were near the area so I was expecting them but it just arrived today. This is the first time that someone wasn't able to find my house. Its quite easy to find.

the items from the package. 2 180 gms box

it says no other milk understands you better. 

The other package is from Human <3 Nature! Batch 3 of orders from me. (I am a proud Human <3 Nature dealer). I'm gonna deliver these orders tomorrow to my customers :)

Human <3 Nature waybill

Personally, I'm a Human Heart Nature user. I believe in their products and the advocacy of the company. The products are 100% Natural and doesn't contain any chemicals. Who wouldn't want that right? Not to mention that Human Heart Nature products are super effective. I'm not exaggerating. I've been using their products for months now and I can say, my skin has never been better!

the "pizza boxes"

upwrapping the package

Nowadays, products, especially cosmetics contain loads and loads of gunk that are not only bad for you but also for the environment, can cause cancer, and are using animal testing. Fortunately, A company like Human Heart Nature exists! They are pro-philippines, pro-environment and pro-poor.

the items

I pledge to spread goodness T-Shirt (S)

More items!

all items

all items 2

For those interested in Human Heart Nature products and want to order, you can reach me via comment or add my shop, Kawaii Neko Shoppe as a friend on facebook. :) 

For more information about Human Heart Nature, please click this link.

-=KASUCHAN=-

0 The "ME" Two Years Before

Looking back at my life two years ago, I can't believe how many things in my life had changed since then. Two years ago, I was employed in a different company, doing different work, and being with different people. Two years ago, I was still together with my ex. Two years ago, life was so easy for me then. Someone straight from college and entering the corporate world. I was optimistic, full of passion and so innocent about the "real world". I was full of childish dreams of how to live my life after college. Oblivious to the fact that I will face many hardships as I go along.

A picture of me two years ago. I look so young *^*

Fast forward to the present, new company, new people and new love life. As I compare myself to the person I was, I begin to notice a significant difference in the way that I view things. I was a weakling before. By weakling I mean that I was afraid to take risks and always go with the flow. I always look around other people and follow them. I tend to always be what people call "normal". I do not dare go past those boundaries. For me before, normal = cool. I was contented  living in my comfort zone. I shy at other people and don't talk much. (maybe people I met before thought that I was an imbecile -_-#).

Today, I believe that I'm stronger now. Whatever decisions I have made in the past, right or wrong, I regret nothing. Those things taught me many things in life and made me the way I am today.Those things made me stronger. So far, I'm happy where I am at. Though of course, I still want to continue changing for the better. :) (as the saying goes, change is an ongoing process ;) ) Though think my childish ways will never leave me, but at the very least, I can act mature and be responsible for my actions :) Also, I was such a tomboy back then and now I want to change that :p I want to be a girly girl too. (I'm a late bloomer I know :/ ) I realized  I'm not getting any younger and so I have to live life at its fullest. Make memories, travel the world, explore new things, conquer each passing day and be victorious while you still can! Enjoy your youth while you still have it. In the future, you can share the things you learned with your children.

A current picture of me. Just barely a week old. That is not actually a lost tooth.  I have braces.

The world as i see it now is ripe and ready for the taking. You just have to have enough drive and effort to grab it. opportunities come and go so grab them while they are still within your reach.

-=KASUCHAN=-

0 50 off at Starbucks

For those coffee addicts out there, Starbucks has an ongoing promo today from 2 to 5 pm. slash 50 off your favorite starbucks drinks. Grab it while you can!

0 Geeky Glasses

After 3 years of wearing correction lens, I'm back to wearing glasses again. Ever since I was in third grade, I've been wearing glasses for my astigmatism. ( Geekery to the highest level ) I was a geek since birth! Hahaha! *evil laugh* ehem.. Back to the topic, what triggered the change was that since my work involves facing the computer for extensive number of hours, my eyes tend to dry out often. The drops don't help much and I tend to have tired-looking eyes hours after removing the lenses. I always squint my eyes and have difficulty in looking at bright lights (even going out in daylight) I feel like a vampire. I encountered this difficulty more often while I was switching from contacts to glasses but know my eyes have more or less adapted to wearing glasses again.

Wearing contacts is convenient especially when doing outdoor activities but if I'm just at the office it reading, I prefer wearing glasses more :)) makes you look smart and geeky in a cute kind of way. Hahaha :)

-=KASUCHAN=-

2 My Zahir

I've just realized recently, I still have feelings for the jerk who left me.. Its been more than a year but I just cant seem to move on. Or more like I didnt give myself enough time to move on. I busied myself with other things. denied the fact that I still cared for him. I buried it deep inside my heart making myself believe that i'm okay.. that i will be okay.. but i guess things just doesnt roll that way. I need to confront my feelings so that I can finally live in peace without his shadow hanging over my heart. I need to sort things out with myself. Before it destroys my current relationship. don't get me wrong. I love the guy. Its just that i cant help myself thinking about the stupid ex and I don't like it. I think its unfair for my current bf. I want to give him my whole heart but the shadow is still there. I dont know how actually i'll do it, but i need to do it. I dont have any communication with the ex now so i think it will be the best for us. I need to let go of my feelings for him. i don't want to be a slave of my past anymore. life is short to be unhappy. :) betrayal and sufferings may come your way but dont let it get to you much. yes you can cry, God knows how good it makes you feel, then lick your wounds and move on. Thats life. accept it. you have no choice. Time doesn't stop when you decide to stop living. You will just be left behind. These are the lessons that I learned the hard way and I don't want to go back there anymore. I want to be free.

 I'm not the type of person who shows emotions much. I grew up that way. I don't want to cry cause I believe that it will make me look weak. I have always shown a hard facade, always concealing my emotions. But in the end, all that i needed was just a good cry and i'm done. Oh and writing helps too. I just recently discovered. Its therapeutic. I read in the book, The Zahir by Paolo Coelho that when you share your story to other people, it becomes your past. (I recommend the book it. its a nice read.) I think that is what i lack. I always keep emotions bottled up inside of me that there's no way out but to burst.

"Suffering occurs when we want other people to love us in the way we imagine we want to be loved, and not in the way that love should manifest itself - free and untrammeled, guiding us with its force and driving us on." - The Zahir, Paulo Coelho


“I love you” doesn't really mean that I want you to be mine again. In fact, it’s another way of saying, “I’m happy to see you happy even if its with someone new. Thank you for leaving my life” Yeah, so I guess I love you.

Goodbye to you my past. This time, I MEAN IT. :)

0 Intoxicated!

Shit. Deep shit. That's where I am now. I went drinking with friends yesterday and I got to drink a lot.. As in a LOT.. A whole lot.. Seems like my tolerance to alcohol is not that strong. I'm not a regular drinker so maybe that's another factor. I can't remember what happened. As in total blackout.. Dunno what kind of stupidity I did.. All I remember was my 6th bottle San mig lights.. And riding a jeepney going home.. Shit right? By the way, I've been saying that word again and again today since I woke up. Everything in between, I can't remember. Thank God I got home safe and nothing bad happened to me. The horror! I have no intention of repeating that incident again. I mean it! I need to fix myself. I need to find peace.. So help me God..

3 Curls and Twirls

I Decided to tie my hair in a bun out of a whim and voila, when I removed the bun, my hair looked like this! I like it though and I'm debating whether to get a permanent curl or tie my hair up everyday like this :)) I'm getting tired of my straight hair 'cause it's been like that since forever. The most adventurous thing I've done with my hair was to change its color. (from dark brown, medium brown, all other shades is brown, and finally dark golden brown ) that's it. Boring right? Oh well. Well see what happens ;)

0 Travel bug strikes again!

Hi, I'm Yza, and I love pandas. As in suuupeerr love pandas! (one of my dreams is to be able to hug a baby panda. :)) So imagine my delight when one of my dearest friends who is now residing in Japan tagged me these photos: 

A pandabus! I wanna ride this!  

Panda stuffies! Yay!

More panda merchandise! I soo wanna go to Ueno,Tokyo right now :/

Because of these photos, the sleeping traveler/adventurer inside me began to stir again. Its decided! I'm going to Japan next year! I don't care what it takes! bwahahaha! *evil laugh* Actually, being an anime fan, I have dreamed of going to Japan since I was little. The panda pictures just hardened my resolution. ;) I'm fascinated with the Japanese culture: f how they can be modern and conservative at the same time.

Things to do before Japan trip:

1. Get a passport. 

You need to have a passport if you want to go anywhere outside your country. This applies to everyone. no exceptions.

2. Get a travel visa.

You cant go to japan without a visa.  In my case a travel visa. I still need to apply for a travel visa. Information about getting Japan visa can be found here. This is applicable for all unless you are an American, European or Australian (who are allowed visa-free entry to Japan for 90 days)

3. Save money.

Hopefully I get to save enough dough for this trip. My travel fund is nearing rock bottom and based from what I have researched from the net so far, for 15 days in Japan, you need to have at LEAST 100,000 PHP or roughly about 2,365.26 USD . *sigh* Fortunately, I still have a year to save and hopefully that will be enough. Worse comes to worst, i'll sell my kidney. (kidding!)

4. Plan itenerary.

I have many places that I want to go once I'm in Japan. Kyoto, Akihabara, Tokyo, Osaka etc. hopefully i get to squeeze as many destinations as I can in my 15 days (maximum number of days to stay in Japan for travel visa) stay there and of course, bond with my friend who is generous enough to ask me to stay in their place. God bless them :) Thank God for wonderful friends! I love you Phoebe! :)

5. Buy plane ticket.

how do I get to Japan from the Philippines(my beloved country)? Best option is to fly by plane. :) I'll be on the lookout for promo fares to Japan being the cheapskate that i am :) Best option is Cebu Pacific Air because they are the cheapest and they occasionally give seat sales. You can go to Japan for 7-9k all-in roundtrip ticket during seat sales compared to the regular ticket which will cost you about 20-30k. One of the drawbacks though is Cebu Pacific only flies to Osaka (Kansai). You still need to ride a bus or the shinkansen to go to other major cities.

6. Earn enough leave credits and file for a leave

I don't know about other companies but in our company, we get to have 15 leave credits per fiscal year. I need to budget my leaves so that I can earn enough leaves good for at least two weeks. (less travel trips for me. boo! :( )

7. Learn basic conversational Japanese

If I were to travel alone, I need to stock on my Japanese vocabulary so that I wont get lost before finding my friend. especially since I will arrive in osaka (if i were to push thru with my plan to ride on cebu pacific air). My friend is located at Niiza-shi, Saitama, roughly 2 - 3 hrs away via shinkansen from osaka. I still have plenty of time to get lost. lol.


I think that's all I need to do. For now. :)

-=KASUCHAN=-

1 New Girl in Town

Hi, Im Yza, 23, from the beautiful country of the Philippines. I'm a programmer by day and ninja by night.(wishful thinking. lol.) I'm a very random person so my interests range from extremes. I love reading, art, photography, travel, panda cubs, strawberries, puppies, and anything cute or weird that spikes my interest. I have attempted to create blogs before but abandoned them after a while. Hope this one lasts :)

 I have a photoblog:http://strawberryshakepanda.tumblr.com/ so if you are interested, you can drop by it and please leave a comment so that i can improve my craft more. 

as I said, I Iove travelling. I have recently been bitten by the travel bug and is currently suffering symptoms of wanderlust. My goal is to travel the world! (or at least half of it). 

P.S. I also have an online shop. if you have time you can check it out:

facebook: http://www.facebook.com/kawaiinekoshoppe

That's all for now! :)

-=KASUCHAN=-